Neil Zusman


Neil Zusman opted to have a more conceptual statement:


12/17   (In this version links are only accessible by copy and paste to remove any shred of convenience for the reader.)


Write to Jason Bernagozzi and give him something else for the website.  I deserve an apple for being an angel and working my ass off the smartest way I can figure out by trusting myself. An unconditional acceptance and love for the other. Extensible to other worlds.


I don’t feel like sharing.  Either on YouTube or any of the content blank web sites I  have maintained and developed slowly for four years.  I prefer my privacy as a fountain rather than the hell of depending on you (not you in particular Jason, but the larger ‘you’).  To work around that limitation, I dedicate my work to my friends so that I can honor my mentors and perfect my craft, perfect myself, like the other Americans I train myself to follow by reading from the mentors and following them, dead or alive. I only lunch with friends.


To make matters worse for myself, I have self-trained in Unix, html, javascript, css, php, and gads more so that I can remain private even when I go public.  I only want to go public if I can be in a room full of curious people who also are as involved in their own self-perfection, that ‘song of myself’ that Whitman sings, as I am. So, if you invite me, I will come.  Sometimes I have to beg or bribe you for your interest,  and as interested I am in that song,  you may not be.  I don’t blame you.  Suffer the narrator.  Yet, I prepare for larger and larger audiences in space, ad infinitum in an appropriate Apache stack that I built by hand, warding off the hacker hordes ready for lots of traffic.  I defy analysis.


Given a quiz, as to who in a list is the most spiritual among a sports car driver, an athlete, a politician, a priest, a standup comic; I pick the comedian.  Is there a signal process you can see that is spiritual, funny, and theatrical all at the same time?  Do I really want to create a theater of me with processed video or just write a novel.  Would it be a book or an app?


Can the work explode like dynamite? Ask the writers who Garrison Keillor told me about on their birthday.  He told you and you and me too.  My morning radio ritual these past few years. Gone now.  Blown up. Christopher Morley said, "You can blow up a man with gunpowder in half a second, while it may take twenty years to blow him up with a book. But the gunpowder destroys itself along with its victim, while a book can keep on exploding for centuries.”


I try to make work for the centuries out of a process informed by best code practices.  How is that writing?

Elizabeth Hardwick said: "There are really only two reasons to write: desperation or revenge."


John Ashberry said: He said: "I don't quite understand about understanding poetry. I experience poems with pleasure: whether I understand them or not I'm not quite sure. I don't want to read something I already know or which is going to slide down easily: there has to be some crunch, a certain amount of resilience.”


How can I get any work done?  Politics, parenting, looking to find videos hired by people I admire and have money for me to write, shoot, edit. Superimposing my early work in Video Installation, Act Requiring Maintenance (1976) on new schema, other recording sessions from the 80’s and 90’s finding their way to refinement and release.  Time to plan, to test, to reach in at Signal Culture.


Note: Evernote is not required to view these links.  Ignore their offer to set up an account for you.  I’ve made 2500 private ‘notes’ since 2013. These pages will become part of my domains at a future date, when I am less frightened of you, less bored.  When I learn to love you unconditionally.


See also: Neil Gabler. Why the Trump Era Won’t Pass Without Serious Damage to America. 13 Dec 2017. Bill Moyers and Company.



See also:  Maggie | Kingdom’s Hair | Parakeet Training.

   --  15 Dec 2017.


See also: Ranky Tanky.

   --  14 Dec 2017


See also: An Act Requiring Maintenance (1976).

   -- updated 16 Dec 2017


See: This whole note, replicant cloned like note feedback. Neil Zusman. updated 16 Dec 2017



See: My private Political Action Monthly report at Tompkins County Democratic Committee.



See: Men in Black | Farewell City Health Club




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